I think we all have those moments in life where we just wonder why ME? Why now? I know I have had zillions. I learned to stop asking “why me” and turn that into “why not me”? No matter what the circumstance is – God is deepening my faith the minute I give myself up to HIS will. Same with the “why now”. ” Why not now”? I don’t have to know the outcome. Wait what??? No really, we don’t have to know. We want to know, we want to have our outcome, our will. This is not easy; nothing that is going to have life lasting, deep transformation is. Yet, out of the deep desire of my heart to “grow and know” I force myself to surrender, to be obedient to God’s Sovereignty (His power). How I do this is the key. Its not as simple as it is to write. Somethings, I truly wrestle with, deeply wrestle with. Like when one of my pups is sick, seriously sick. That’s a rough one for me. I can on;y get to the “why not me”, “why not now” by prayer. I have to lean in and lean in through prayer, so I can rise up and tell that mountain of disease to scram. To accept it might not. And to know, that no matter what, my mustard seed is going to flourish and build a canopy of faith over me and my life.